Monday, April 28 Y 4/28/2008 11:35:00 PM
I HATE myself.
Why???
Coz im fat.
I dun mind being fat actually, but sum ppl insulted mi in a way tt is unbearable. I may laugh it off in sch, but inside, I felt like my heart was torn into a million pieces. Not everybody will be skinny!! I jus can't help it. Different ppl has their own down points. Why must you sae such hurting stuff to me?? Sumtimes, I wonder if u really are my friend. Things just dun seem right in sch. Yesterdae, I even cried bt i did nt tell any1. I oni told u. And yet.......
I think I really have to open my eyes a little bit more and see the real u. Is this it?
If this person which im talking abt sees this, pls, think of my feelings b4 saeing sumtin. Its really hurtful even if I dun show it in class. Sumtimes, I jus hide in my room and cry. Its unseen and unknown, but it happens. Im nt saeing tt only this person said tt, I was so hurt coz im reminded of it over and over agn. Like the term strawberry, it may seem funny when you call me a strawberry, and I laugh. But actually, I am hurt. I dun want to condemn any1 or any thing, but its jus to let this person noe tt its nt really a joke lyk its meant to be.
Some wounds are engraved in your heart forever, never mended, never repaired.
