Sunday, September 7 Y 9/07/2008 12:12:00 AM
[Its saturday, but since im posting an 12+am, it says sunday.]
Haix... I literally broke down 2dae. First, this whole day, he din msg mi... And after YC, that stupid Abigail really PISSED ME OFF!!! She kept showing off to mi, talking cheem physics stuff that will be learnt at higher level, then, she kept talking to mi in french. WA LAO EHH... You come show off to me for wad? Go find someone who cares!!! Okay, so she show off to me, I'm the kind who will fight back, but not lose my temper. So, I dropped hints and showed my 'displeasure'. Then, she go sae that I'm arrogant and I dunno anytin but pretend to noe everything!!! WTF?!?!?! Ok, so then, I lost my cool and shouted at her. Then, I stormed away and said that I would NEVER go back to YC ever again if she chooses to tag along audrey every week. Its like, shes a young adult!! Why come to YOUTH church??? She's just a pain in the neck!! ARGHHHHH!! Lol okay, so I stormed off and went back home. Or so its called. I opened the door to walk into AN EMPTY HOUSE. Then, I was already breaking down. I called my mum, and she was out wif everybody but me. AND THEY WERE ALL SHOPPING. When I went to youth church, they actually went shopping and FORGOT about my dinner. When I called, she said " Oh yea hor! Your dinner how?" Haix... So I said nvm and put down the phone. I was depressed. I seriously was. Ok so, no choice. I HAD to talk to someone. Or at least have some sound around me. And this was when I really broke down. At first, I called Daniel. I just needed to hear some sound in the quiet house. It was really unbearable. "ring ring" no answer. I called Joel. Nothing to talk about so I asked about the history project. He sounded very sian so I decided to put down the phone. No use continueing the conversation. I wanted to call Si Han, but I remembered her sore throat. She won't be able to talk on the phone. Yun Qi, not at home, at her grandma's house. Amanda, voice mail. I was seriously stressed. I was REALLY tempted to grab that penknife. I called Daniel again. Still no answer. Haix... So, I went to use the com. At least while watching anime, I could hear sound. But I was really depressed. Haix... Nvm... I shouldn't stress myself anymore. Anyway I think i'm pathetic. Even when I really need someone to talk to, I can't find any. I'm really pathetic and a complete loser. I'm so scared that one day I'll finally lose it. I hope that day never comes but seriously, I cant deal with the emotional stress on mi. Other people will definitely not understand, maybe only Si Han will... I really broke down. I didn't think that's possible but returning to an empty house after a bad day, not having someone to talk to and confide in, its really horrible. I never want another day like 2dae.
